progress

Its been over a week that I started eating healthy and working out...at of day 7, I had not lost any weight. I felt better about wearing shorts but they wernt looser, just fyi....

When I had my tram flap surgery, by my boobs have deep pockets by my arms. The plastic surgeon said that after my radiation we would fix it. Well that surgery is Sept 12th....

and to sound like a broken record.....let me say this to myself.....CUT YOURSELF A BREAK...not even one year ago you were having chemo..... Im super embarrassed that I cant do anymore but I have to remember to fight like a girl.....

and daily I get comps on my hair:)

5 days

So I am working out.... A LOT like before I wouldnt work out on my days of PT and now I do....and Im eating good/healthy....Im not trying to loose weight, I just want to be healthy.....so today I did my ellpitical for 20 min, a 12 min routine with ashely borden, a legs on fire by blogilates for 10 minutes, then a squat routine by Blogilates

and I was super embarrassed because people can do a pushup, weaker can do girl ones, me- i can only do plank....so I have been asking trainers if its my SCA that makes it impossible or am I just weak from them cutting half my body off? so my therapist told me its NOT MY SCA. She told me to keep on trying but start on a counter or wall....and I did them and I CAN!!!! So I want to get stronger!!

and I didnt love working out because it makes my balance sooooo off when im sore or tired....but I think Im finally passing that. I almost ate it today but then came and worked out.....so yay me...

I remember being at the therapist 3 months ago and telling them i could only do elliptical for 20 minutes and that it......now I do way more, so I am getting better.

so trying and never giving up is working

Inspired

so lately Im looking for inspiration to eat healthy and work out.....not to loose weight but to be in the best health I could be....then it hits me....I have real inspiration....My Shani was in my wedding and even though she rocked her weight, she was super unhappy. She had a disability and still got in amazing shape.....
on vacation in 09

then after....

and years later she is still thin and had surgery to finally heal her disability

so physically and mentally she did it!!!!

and she is one of my favorite people.ever

She now lives in nyc........I need a trip for more pics and more inspiration and just for a giggle

Cassandra’s Fight Like a Girl Story (Breast Cancer)

Cassandra’s Fight Like a Girl Story (Breast Cancer)

Success is a journey

Today I did Pilates, the plank challenge, elliptical for 25 minutes, 30 jumps, and 30 squats.... now for the hard part...eating healthy

this video helped me push myself.

Miracles do happen

I have been following this story for a bit because it hits so close to home....and I FREAKEN love her parents.....They give Lilly all the praise but it takes very strong parents to give up their jobs, home and everything to help their lil one fight .....here is her video....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=33snM578oKA


AND SHE BEAT IT...yeppers a miracle happened...She is the only infant with it and beat it.....so it was a 0 percent chance she would win....and her parents didnt let her give up....Luv

follow them on facebook
https://www.facebook.com/lilly.bumpus.9?hc_location=stream

Oh.so.cute

I may be biased but i love these kids......I love how much they love each other!!! Look how Cooper is Walking her across the bridge............. It was work to narrow them down to 85 pics.....Thanks Victoria and Ronnie for sharing them with us and thank you for believing in me that I could still take their pics.....

Here they are

progress

This time last year I had 4 chemos and surgery down. I had pain alot but especially sleeping...so a year later let me say what I have done.....today I walked both of my puppies, folded 2 loads of laundry, picked up my room, did Pilates and plank challenge, vacuum and swiffered the whole house, picked up kitchen,  made lunch, and did dishes....to some that is not much but for me I am super proud!!!!

Exercise

Today I did the Pilates routine and the plank challenge...I was SUPER sore which is why I couldnt do it the next day and then had therapy yesterday which is a super hard workout too...

Im a little in love with pilates and this girl helps me do things I normally give up to do....

Also I am debating doing the gluten free and dairy free diet thing.....EVERY Dr. has recommended me do it. Also I feel better then I have in the am.......which is so great- maybe the exercise is a good thing.

I went the other day to photograph my nephew and niece and I wasnt disappointed. They were so good and so cute and there loved oozed...I can wait to post pics of them.....

in less than 2weeks I fly to see my family....Im so excited

Exercise

Ok so Im like most girls- I diet for few hours and expect to lose weight by lunch....so a few weeks back when i tried to do yoga and film it...I sucked that time and all 3 times since.....so it discouraged me to not do it....um 3times.....

then my sis n law posted this to me.....

and its so right on....so I did pilates for 25 minutes and then the plank challenge

i hope I get strongeer

Freedom

I have no photos from July 4th last year due to me being in the middle of chemo and being too sick, but lovey took this on July 3rd to show how yucky I was

and so its like freedom a year later to be sooooo much better

and making these things

and taking these pics:)

What a GREAT day!!! Happy Birthday America

in between

I tell my shrink ALL THE TIME that everyone who had Breast Cancer, came off that they are very full of roses...and this girl states that NO ONE was awesome during cancer....and like every freaken thing, everyone is so different....but for me it was somewhere in the middle. I got WAY closer to a few people including my husband and his Mom.....but I had a few friends that where super close to me that I can count on one hand how many times I saw them during my cancer.....and yes the attention fades when you get better but it should because your a BIG PERSON and due to how much I was affected by cancer, Im super self conscious and therefor want to be alone sometimes....but she is right about the after effects, I have pain everywhere, scars everywhere, and numbness where I don't have pain and sleeping comfortably is not my friend still.....and yes I still see a shrink to fix this stupid/broken head a mine.......

And....

so she is correct when she says that Cancer is a horrible thing and we have so many issues still....but like my mother told me before she went to heaven.....it is what it is....be happy or sad about it but it wont change....So I choose joy....most days....but its a choice

Physical Therapy

I go to PT 2-3 per week to help me talk better and walk better.....Its a VERY slow healing but when the Dr. rechecked me the other day, I could do things that I couldn't do 5 months ago......like standing on a 20x20 piece of 3 inch foam and then close your eyes....Yeah I did it and felt like bring it on...so he told me to keep coming to therapy....and I have..and yesterday my PT told me to run in  place and I'm like- I can't......Well rewind but my brother and my Mom HATES when i say I can't do something....Hates it and they both tell me to try anything.....and at times I feel like they have no idea-I have to try everything......so when I say I cant, its hard to see that I can.....Well the otherday when she said to run in place and Im like I cant then immediately I say, let me figure out how to do it.....and I looked so silly but I did it....I haven't ran in years--haven't even tried but I tried and had to hold on but I DID IT!!!!so yayayayay!!!