MY 32 birthday was wednesday...It was a GREAT day. Besides my 4521548 wall post on FB that made me giidy like an 8 year old.....I bought a cute dress and knew Lovey was taking me to dinner...
sidebar I have asked for a new camera on Monday- gave the link to love of which one to buy and everything...well when the box came the next day I assumed there was NOOOOO way it could be my camera. It must be a chi blow dryer and straightner that I need....
So I get all dressed up and we go to dinner... I asked where we were going but it was a suprise. Well we went to Benihanas. We walk over to the bar to wait and there was our neighbors John and Casey..Then Ronnie and Victoria came with no Cooper ( he was with Loveys Mom), Jessica and Keith and Mia came too:) it was a GREAT time with awesome food...so at the end of dinner I open my pressie from Lovey and it was MY CAMERA!!!!! YAYAYYAYAYAYYA
I had good food, awesome cake, and a perfect gift!
Our neighbors The Newlyweds The new parents my Jess This is my gift... I would look at the Dell label Lovey wrapped the presents in the box....sheeesh omyyyyylanta!!!! my camera!!! and the lense
So I have been wanting to write this blog entry but someone from my work reads it, but I have warned her to not read this entry if she doesn’t want to know…
My Dad fired me the other day. He said that he wanted to do it when he got home but his wife cant ever get a hold of me so he is doing it now… I have 60 days to find another job.
Well a little background. My Dad left my mother and us kids when I was 11 and DJ was 9 and Jason was 14. He didn’t send one penny and barely called. He told us that God told him to leave. My church told us he was deceived and that we should push on…Well my mother wasn’t very nice to us…but can you blame her? Having a terminal illness, 3 kids, no husband nor income? I understand, Jason doesn’t. DJ does a little.
I had to send DJ to live with my Dad when he was 14. I didn’t have the money or a house to do it. My mom went to live with my Grandma. My church decided to not pay for the extra bills that my moms SSI, our child support from the state, and food stamps didn’t cover. I was dating a MUCH older guy. I left school. They thought it was for the boyfriend when it soooo wasn’t. It was to care for my Mom. I went back to night school and got my diploma. Not GED- Diploma:) yes I am VERY proud, it was hard work.
Well other than arranging DJ going to live with him, I had no communication with him. I called him the Jim Jones of the new millennium. He has his own religion. He believes that he has the best relationship with God…but other time he thinks he is God. Well he isn’t. He is an ex-convict that Jesus has saved. He needs to be really born again and leave his conman- guilt ridden personality at the cross.
Fast forward to beginning of 2000. My mom is in Hospice. The give her weeks to live and she asks me to call my Dad, she wants to see him. She told me she has forgiven him. Well he tells me no. He tells me that he has an image in his mind of what she looked like well and doesn’t want to see her. So he didn’t come and didn’t come to her funeral.
3 weeks after she died he comes to town and asks to have dinner with me and my boyfriend at the time. We have dinner and he tells me that I need to leave her memory in the past. That I’m dwelling on it and I need to let it go. And if I had any faith I would. I was broken. Here my mother just died less than 3 weeks before and I’m having dinner with my estranged father and he tells me to forget her, don’t dwell on the past. I’m like I would understand – but she just died 3 WEEKS AGOOOOO…not 3 months, years ago. He also tried to get me and my boyfriend to sell tires with him. We obviously said no.
Well after she died I realized that I have spent the last 10 yrs caring for her and not myself, so I went to college…a community college but college. So I talk to him a few times here and there. I really felt that my mom died and I only have one Dad, so I was trying to be the bigger person and forgive him like God forgives me….everyday. So I was having surgery Christmas Eve and my Dad called me the day after Christmas to say Merry Christmas(Sooo surpised) …I tell him I just had surgery. He tells me he is going to France with DJ. I said, you have a daughter and I would LOVE to go. He said well if you can get your passport in 3 days, you can go. Well I did and I went. He was so hard on me. We obviously argued and he told me that he thought I had my mom’s sickness because I was soooo much like her arguing with him..…nice.
Well I came home and was still in college and he called me in March and asked me to work for Omega. DJ would be my boss. I said no. He said you can work from home, and be a stay at home mom. I said yes.
I went Aug 03 and trained for 2 very long months and came home WAYYYY AGAINST what my Dad wanted. He wanted me to stay there. Longer than 2 months? Ummm no.
I have worked for Omega for just over 5 years and in that time I have made them some really good money. As much as 2.6 million in 07. but yet I HAVE NEVER gotten a commission check on time. Ever. I have pleaded with my husband that it would get better. But when the company grew from 4.5 million to over 8 million the next year and they still couldn’t pay me? Ann always blames something or someone else. It is NEVER her or my Dads fault. It’s somehow DJ’s…always. Well my Dad had an investor named ….Mr. Waytoonice. He has given our company over 800k and yet somehow he is the bad guy. My Dad hasn’t paid him back a dime and yet he is the evil one..of the devil. My Dad has managed with being shady and screwing vendors over with money has REALLY tarnished our reputation. DJ takes the 4521548 calls and makes 12548578 excuses of why we can’t pay them again. And now with this awesome economy taking a downhill spiral my Dad is bad. We went from 8 million to 6 million in sales last year but yet we are CRAZY in the hole. Well that’s because my Dads awesome mentality. We have been late on two payrolls yet we had donuts in the break room. DJ has repeatedly tried to save money, or tried to think outside the box and is CONSTANTLY told he has NO authority at all. He owns 19 shares but has no authority. On top of this he is told daily by my Dad and Ann how I and DJ are both bad seeds and how we have missed God, and how we need to turn and follow him..I mean Christ…Sometimes DJ would get 4-7 emails saying how wrong he was. Well a year after this being at its worst. My Dad has asked for DJ’s resignation and he is terminating me. When I wrote him back he changed his tune and said if I don’t change he is moving to a different department. Well news flash to him, I m only her for IVF insurance coverage. That’s why I have put up with my Dad and Ann’s constant verbal abuse. So if he fires me Ill claim unemployment and they pay 65% of cobra insurance. So it’s just a matter of time.
Now a vendor we had a contract with for repairs has not been paid almost 250k for one deal. My Dad got prepaid over 300k for the deal and yet never paid them. Then gave them a promissory note saying he would pay like 5-10k per month and he hasn’t paid them anything. It’s been almost a year. So they are suing him…So this vendor suing my dad plus the investor that he owes 800k to= bankruptcy for Omega. I hope I’m wrong. I hope that somehow they find a way out of this hole.
And yes I would LOVE to blame this on his cancer but he has always been like this. DJ and I were verbally abused wayyyy before his cancer.
I actually feel bad for DJ the most. He has been made to look like a moocher and loser to our staff…and yet he was the star. He is now a broken star.He grew Omega from a 50k loss to over 8 million in 5 years…..Well I can’t say what I want to about this because I do have a coworker on here…btw please don’t repeat any of this….to anyone…ok maybe Derek But DJ has big plans, they are already in motion and he is going to be soooo good.
I am looking forward to getting the happy DJ back. I have missed him.
I could write WAY more about this but it is already a VERY long posting.
In closing, please pray. Pray for me and my bitterness, for my patience in understanding my Dad, my peacefulness as I do IVF and have this stress over me.
So today I woke up to about 45215487 messages on FB saying Happy Birthday. I then go check the mail in this amazing mood ( yes I know I still act like Im 8) and in there is a few things that io have been waiting for....but there is a $36.00 check in there, a letter from the IRS confirming they have finally got my letters disputing their charges that my step mom/awesome account screwed up a few years back costing us about $900.00 on our taxes...so yayayyaya annnnd I got...........drumroll please
MY PRE- APPROVAL LETTER FOR MY IVF FROM MY INSURANCE COMPANY!!!!!!!
I got told a few times that i wouldnt get the letter or it would be hard to get....so I have been waiting and then today..like a Birthday present from my Mommy above...yayayyayaya
1. A husband that does alot for me when he isnt broken... 2. A brother whom is my biggest fan. 3. An awesome spooky that loves me sooo much 4. Insurance that is covering IVF 5. PGD- so that my children never have to go through what I have with this dumb sickness. 6. 32 awesome years of life tomorrow. 7. Beautiful nieces and nephews 8. An N law family that Rocks:) 9. We own our own home 10. We get more and more out of debt everyday
these are the things that Im thankful for..
Its impossible to be unthankful and thankful at the same time...so here is my list of things i am thnkful for.
I can almost see it That dream I'm dreaming but There's a voice inside my head sayin, You'll never reach it, Every step I'm taking, Every move I make feels Lost with no direction My faith is shaking but I Got to keep trying Got to keep my head held high
There's always going to be another mountain I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing, The chances I'm taking Sometimes they knock me down but No I'm not breaking I may not know it But these are the moments that I'm going to remember most yeah Just got to keep going And I, I got to be strong Just keep pushing on, cause
There's always going to be another mountain I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb
There's always going to be another mountain I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes you going to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb
Keep on moving Keep climbing Keep the faith baby It's all about It's all about The climb Keep the faith Keep your faith
I can almost see it That dream I'm dreaming but There's a voice inside my head sayin, You'll never reach it, Every step I'm taking, Every move I make feels Lost with no direction My faith is shaking but I Got to keep trying Got to keep my head held high
There's always going to be another mountain I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing, The chances I'm taking Sometimes they knock me down but No I'm not breaking I may not know it But these are the moments that I'm going to remember most yeah Just got to keep going And I, I got to be strong Just keep pushing on, cause
There's always going to be another mountain I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb
There's always going to be another mountain I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes you going to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb
Keep on moving Keep climbing Keep the faith baby It's all about It's all about The climb Keep the faith Keep your faith
I can almost see it That dream I'm dreaming but There's a voice inside my head sayin, You'll never reach it, Every step I'm taking, Every move I make feels Lost with no direction My faith is shaking but I Got to keep trying Got to keep my head held high
There's always going to be another mountain I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing, The chances I'm taking Sometimes they knock me down but No I'm not breaking I may not know it But these are the moments that I'm going to remember most yeah Just got to keep going And I, I got to be strong Just keep pushing on, cause
There's always going to be another mountain I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb
There's always going to be another mountain I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes you going to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb
Keep on moving Keep climbing Keep the faith baby It's all about It's all about The climb Keep the faith Keep your faith
So a week ago, right after we did our awesome PGD testing we went to Loveys softball game. We as he went to slide on a ball his twin hit, he went down....
I took him to the hospital. It was a quick visit. Like 1 1/2 hours...Its a broke ankle. So they put a cast on it, gave him some happy pills and sent us on our way. The next day was hard for him. I had to get back into the swing of things of taking care of someone. My mom died 8 years ago and that was the last time I cared for someone else like this...BOY have I been busy...
this was my distaction before the injury... this is a picture of the ankle that was discolored but the flash made it not show... my handsome Lovey all tucked in... and this was my spook checking on his daddy...
This was all sunday and on Tuesday night we went to our nieces first birthday. Well there we 15 of us there and 10 of us got sick....like puking overandoverandover sick... Some think it may be the cake, it was whip cream topping and they probably didnt refridge the cake after they picked it up and we all got sick...uggg. So a broken lovey and then a sick broken lovey has had on my toes like CRAZY!!!!! I love it though- truthfully, and he loves it too:)
So on Monday, March 1st, we did our PGD test for Genesis...As I posted earlier we paid our $3750.00 which is a VERY SMALL COST for us to pay for healthy eggs. We watched the DVD they sent us and it was awesome!!!! We learned so much from it. It answered all of our questions.
So here is a few pictures of our day...
casiclines turn putting it in our very on CSI capsule
