A new day - A new cycle

So today is CD 1. And yes I am excited. I am excited because my Grammy Mandy told me how her babysitter was told by her Dr to use this watch. Also they have heard so many people get prego on it so she pressured me to order it.....and it came in and today I got to do the set up...and yes, I may be WAY to optomistic...but I really think this is gonna help us get knocked up. Trista from the Bacholerette used it and got prego with Max on it.

I helped throw a bridal shower this weekend. It was amazing. Ill post pics soon. So awesome. We leave for the bacholette party in 24 days...so psyched!

My Dad had his biopsy on Friday. We get the results tomorrow. Please keep us all in your prayers for whatever results they are...

31st Birthday

So for my birthday my husband told me that my present would come in the mail. It was funny because he warned me that if I saw the outside of the box, I would know what it was. I HATE to ruin suprises so Im glad he gave me heads up. So the DHL guy came and I opened the door with my eyes closed and he laughed and put the box in my hallway. After he left I took our easter tablecloth and covered the box , with my eyes closed of course...BTW later telling this story on ther phone I kept closing my eyes. It wasnt funny till I ran into the freaking wall. Then it became quite humerous.

So this was the day before my birthday.

My birthday I wake up and come out and look what I see...



Yes my nickname is Tardo. Yes I have wanted a nickname forever a day and he said I woulndt get one and I get the romantic one of Tardo.



I call Lovey and tell him thanks for the cupcake and my favorite powder doughnuts. He asked me if I opened my big gift and I told him noooo I was waiting for him.

I then got a package from work and I got not only a card from my parents, but a noninflated balloon and a handmade card from my brother.


Then Jess and the girls come over and wish a very happy birthday. They give my gift and it is one of the best present I have ever gotten. She sais when she saw it her heart skipped a beat and so did mine. I did tear up. Its a plawue with my new life verse.
Jeremiah 29:11



Loveys mom called me last week to tell me that my two siter n laws and her were going to the melting pot for a fundraiser thingy. She said it was on my bday. She asked me to go. I told her I would have to ask lovey if he any plans for my bday and she said she already asked him and he said he didnt and to take me to dinner. YES I did get upset. Like, really you guys can plan a fundraiser dinner but no bday nothing. And lovey gave me a look to not worry and so I did drop it...I am not sure why I dropped it...was it because his look convenced me or was it because I prayed last year that the Lord would not let me get sad again. ( Last year Lovey took me Disney for my 30th. When we got home I didnt have a dinner or nothing for my bday. I was VERY sad. I mean I felt bad beacuse I loved Disney but nothing from my new family. I was sad....so I prayed I would always be greatful for anything and this year it was a peace...)

BTW I dont know when I started wanted a big thing for my bday. I never had them growing up...so I dont know when it happend.


So we go to dinner and it was soooo good. And one of my sister n laws makes a comment about cake back at my house so i knew something was happening for my bday. So we get back and it wasnt formal...so perfect. People kept coming and coming and just hanging out....so nice. So I open this big box and OMG ITS A LAPTOP.... i hadnt a clue. Lovey got it for me. I am typing this entry on it too.....



So here are some pics from the day. What a great 31st bday.








lucky me

Your gonna miss this.

I am watching the celebrity apprentice and Trace Adkins just sang his new single. I am sitting here tearing up. It hit home. Its called, " Your gonna miss this"

Now with me I truly believe that God will make me a mom when he is ready. I may get frustrated that it isnt right now, but i do have faith it will happen. I say all thie time that I have this feeling it will happen, its just not right now.

Now this song is not for everyone. In this yucky IF situation there are many women trying for longer than me and obviously this song doesnt pertain to them. But it does for me. It helps me relax and leave this babymaking in Gods hands and know that I cant miss this. My husband and I have an awesome relationship. As he was puking so badly from food poisoning last night and I became the instant cleaning woman....and as grose as it was and as tired as I became being up all night...I dont ever want to miss this.

I love my life and feel very blessed. '=

here are the lyrics:
She was starin out the window of their SUV
Complainin sayin I can't wait to turn 18
She said I'll make my own money
And I'll make my own rules
Momma put the car in park out there in front of the school
And she kissed her head, and said
'I was just like you'
You're gonna' miss this
You're gonna' want this back
You're gonna' wish these days
Hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna' miss this
Before she knows it she's a brand new bride
In her one bedroom apartment
And her daddy stops by
He tells her it's a nice place
She says, 'It'll do for now'
Starts talkin' about babies, and buyin a house
Daddy shakes his head
And says baby just slow down
Cuz' you're gonna' miss this
You're gonna' want this back
You're gonna' wish these days
Hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna' miss this
Five years later there's a plumber
Workin' on the water heater
Dog's barkin', phone's ringin'
One kid's cryin' one kid's screamin'
And she keeps apologizin'
He says they don't bother me
I've got two babies of my own
One's thirty- six, one's twenty- three
Huh, it's hard to believe
But you're gonna' miss this
You're gonna' want this back
You're gonna' wish these days
Hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna' miss this
You're gonna' miss this
Yeaahhhh... you're gonna' miss this...

Happy Birthday from my Dad

This is part of a MSN convo with my Dad...it gave me great joy.

hhhhhhhaaaaaappppppppppppyyyyyyyyyy bbbiiiirrrrrttttthhhhhdddddaaaaayyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!! Now that you are 29, what do you think? just a young pretty girl, my very favorite, most highly favored daughter whose smiles and giggles are remembered from that a a little girl in pig tails, pony tails and eyes that just dances all the time.......

backdated

I was talking to Rachel today and she asked me some stuff and I realize all my info/pics are on my other locked blog..so I trasferred all my wedding and love stuff...Hopefully this will give you a lil more insite into who I am...and for those who already know me...its a nice walk down memory lane:)

Enjoy

what do i do?

So I think we are going to switch Dr.’s. Lovey and I have talked about it and we still haven’t decided but..here is our thoughts. Sorry to jump around so much.

We went in July to a RE. We had all the test done. All but my progesterone at DPO 8 or 9 was perfect.
*My progesterone was low. Its suppose to be a 10 and it’s a 6.683.
*Loveys SA was 93 million after being washed. 2.0 volume and all the other test for motility and stuff was like the highest it can be. They said he has excellent sperm.
* All my numbers weren’t even marginal. They were perfect.

I expressed to the Dr about my luteal phase being too short. I have a 25 day cycle and an 8-10 luteal phase…um not long enough. I pulled out my temp charts from the past 7 months at the time and he said that they didn’t go by temperature that is unreliable. And because my temp never does the drop thing on the day of my period and stays high for 3-4 days after the start of my cycle, I agreed. He agreed that I may miscarry if I don’t have a high enough progesterone so he didn’t want me to get knocked up naturally. He told me that he wanted us to do 3 cycles of a “mini stem”. A mini stem is 5 days of clomid (100mg) , 1 shot of Gonal F 150 IU, Repronex (Trigger). He told us that we could do double IUI’s. He informed me that most of time if you correct the first half of the cycle, the second half would correct itself, I wouldn’t need progesterone cream because I would automatically have a higher level being medicated. I asked about IVF and he told me that he didn’t believe we would need IVF. He thought that a few rounds of meds or the first round I would be knocked up.

So the first month, we did the meds….not many side effects. No IUI’s due to loveys high sperm count. All my numbers were so good! Cycle was 27 or 28 days and 12hours of spotting. BFN

2nd month, meds and one IUI then we left on a cruise so we couldn’t do the 2nd one. We hardly had “quality time” my numbers were even better than the last cycle. Cycle was 28 days, BFN.

3rd month, meds and double IUI’s. Hardly any “quality time”. Many side effects. Felt like a beached whale. So tired. 26-27 day cycle. BFN

We went in for our F/U and our options were. 1) Laparoscopy to see if I have endo 2) more injections, no more clomid 3) IVF…..WHAT??? IVF is now on the table as an option? In 3 cycles…omg So I opted for the lap. He told me after the lap, have natural “quality time” for 3 cycles. So we did the lap. I went in to have my stiches removed and he said ok…injections or IVF..What? He asked me what I wanted for the next step. I asked about the 3 cycle break…he said ok…I also asked for a progesterone supplement to help. He gave me prometrium.

Now at the ripe old age of almost 31….dont you agree that’s it kinda early in the game to jump on the IVF wagon. If we had “quality time” all the right times every month for a year, I might feel different. I just don’t feel like it wont happen for us, I think it just not happening now.

So I think I want to see another Dr to see his or her opinion regarding what is up.

What is your thought? If the mini stem corrected my progesterone, does that mean that taking this promtrium is treating the symptom but not the real problem? If so then maybe Im not ovulating properly….hmmm

Easter is here

So for as long as I can remember, Easter is one of my favorite holidays. I dont know if it is because I LOVE the colors or what but I simply gush over any decorations. It is one of my husbands favorite holidays because there are no huge $ gifts....just cute basket gifts...

We decided this year to have Easter at our house because we just had our new kitchen installed and we want to show it off. Well it seems that EVERYONE is coming. We have 14 people coming. I am very excited.

I am sad because we cant go to church because we will be cooking and it will be too stressful, but Easter sunday is one of my favorite Sundays to go. I love all the frilly dresses and the lil girl hats. I have to admit though that when i was small there where MANY more people at church dressed up. Its a much more casual croud and there isnt as many cute hats and dresses anymore.

On the babymaking front....We got only "highs" on my monitor this month. I called my nurse to ask her when i should start my progestrone if i never got a peak...She said that the prometrium can suppress my LH surge and so keep having some "quality time" till CD20 and then start the progesterone. So last night I started my progestrone. I wonder if you dont get a surge, do you ovulate? I wish I knew but I dont want to call my Dr again. I ordered the ovwatch to use next cycle...I didnt open it yet because maybe ill get knocked up this month and wont use the ovwatch and can send the 180$ gadget back.

Yay for Rach and Joe

So today I got the news that has long been overdue for a couple in this yucky place called IF....An amazing couple (who remind me of the love of my husband and myself) found out that the IVF#1 worked. This made me sosososo happy. I don't think anyone deserves this more. After a few failed adoptions and alot of empty promises...its finally happened to them. They are gonna be parents. YaY! I would love to do that cool thing where i can link her blog to here...but no, Im not that cool. yet. I will learn.

You can find her blog at http://www.maydaygirl.blogspot.com/

Congrats to Rachel and Joey.

And I love the quote your moms friend said to you. i hold it close to my heart. : "Your God is big, and He has a big plan for you.. and one day you'll see... that plan will call you mommy"

BTW my husband is reading over my laptop screen..and he says congrats to who??? ross and rachel? Um lovey, thats from friends.....omg, could he be more cute?

please pray

I just got an email from my brother that was from my Dad days ago. He has a mass growing in his lungs. He goes for another CT scan this week for a second opinion. The mass has grown from a pinpoint in Nov07 to 1.2 cm now. Thats alot.

My Dad is one of the biggest pains in the ass that I have endured in my lifetime....but he is my Dad and I am at a loss.

Please pray it is nothing

Dr Visit

So today I had an MRI done. but to tell you about that I have to rewind a little.

I went to my Neurologist for the first time in 3 years, last week. I have put off going because this or that and more this and more that and so my brother told me that I should go and so I made a very overdue appointment.

He is one of 20 Dr.'s in the world that specializes in my diagnosis. SCA type 1. He is very nice and young so I plan on seeing him for a VERY long time. He said that he could see more symptoms that 3 years ago....but the disorder is progressing very slow in my body. He said he could only hear it because he is a specialist. The other Dr, his assistant couldn’t hear it in my speech or see them in my walk or my unbalance. He said that by the end of my life I might use a small cane. Jessica said she would get me a pink one and bling it all up. Yes, she insisted to go with me. I really wanted to go alone, so I thought. And she was like, um no. I'm going. I am so glad she went because even though it was so nice to hear that the disease is going slow in my body, I was sad to hear that he could see some symptoms and that I could no longer hide it. It was a VERY good appointment. He then prescribed me for 3 MRIS's

Now last time I went for two MRI's I got through one and freaked out on the 2nd one. Now I know how dumb it sounds, freaking out? What a woos.

Um yes, I was one of those on the other side that could not understand how laying down and hearing noise could cause a panic attack...... Until it happened to me 3 years ago.

So I go today, alone. I have the brain one done first. Now all I can think of is "What have I done wrong to have a cage but over my face for 35 minutes?" I a mean really, is that necessary when I am already more frighten then my two beagle pups combined to be be put in this tube. I guess it is necessary. Well the good thing about the cage over my face is that it has a mirror that can let me see into the other room...so the first like 15 minutes I am so scared and trying to breathe through it. Then another tech walks in to talk to the tech performing the scan and its like Big brother without the sound. My imagination runs wild. Like maybe they will start kissing. Maybe she doesn’t know I’m in here. Maybe they will fight...Then when she enters the room when I am all complete I realize that I watch too much TV and she is my new tech because he is done for the day.

Damn, thought it might be something juicy. But at least she helped me get through the Hannibal Lecter masked MRI.

Then they did the spine one. It was only 15 minutes. Well I was actually fine even though they had to put a choking device on me.
That was fun. ....NOT
Well I got sick 15 seconds after it ended...the room was spinning, so I rescheduled my 3rd one. I am VERY proud of myself for getting through to major ones. I haven’t been able to talk about it all night. I guess I am a delicate flower and truly was traumatized.

so thats my update.

New Kitchen-Finished

First things first....my kitchen looks good here but WAY better in real life. Everytime I come out of my room I think, omg its so beautiful!

We still have to paint/backsplash tile. We also have to finish the lighting...but the kitchen is done. And for all those that arnt sure if its worth the 10k....yes it is. I love how much easier EVERY cabinet is easier and more accessable to use.

More Baby Allyson

my lovey brought these home without me even asking. Yeah he is pretty nice.

this is is VERY drugged and smiling Christine when she isnt sleeping

Garrett meeting his baby sister for the first time seeing his mommy for the first time. It was weird, he just seemed to know that his sister lived in his mommys belly and she came out.
i love her already
i love him already too

blurry but her eyes are open. i love it
ganster ronnie
my handsome lovey ( one did it will be our own family shot with our baby)
Aunt Victoria

look at the wittle feet

lovey cant get enough of her
Ronnie pushed him over...Let me see
then he stole her
look how prego. 14 weeks 4 days

It was all in all a great night....

to be continued

Baby Allyson's first time eating...ever

Since mommy had surgery she cant nurse for two days... daddy fed her her very first bottle/feeding.

It was beautiful

Baby Allyson is here!

Baby Allyson Taylor was born this am at 8am. She is 7lbs, 6oz. and 18 inches long. She has a set of lungs on her. She is beautiful. I cant wait to hug her.

Ok for the cutest picture first.

finger sucker....

Daddy and his little girl

first time I saw her.
she is so perfect already.

Mommy had some complications. Her bladder adhered to her uterus. She had to have it seperated??? and now had to have a cathater for 10-14 days. She cant nurse for 2 days.....Poor mommy. Please pray for her.

My Loveys twins wife

So last night I saw my sister in law for the first time in about 3 weeks and OMG wow what a difference 3 weeks makes. She is currently 14 weeks pregnant. She is very big already. She started gainign weight right away. She gained 10lbs in the first 10 weeks. She was just over 100lbs to start so she is big. She said she hasnt gained anymore weight, its just shifted. I say there maybe two in there.

Our husbands are identical twins. There Aunt and Uncle are twins.....you never know.



She looks adorable and she isnt sick anymore. She is so happy about that. She said now she gets awful headaches.

I wanted to post this on her myspace but she wants to announce it before I post this pic.

My other sister in law is due to have her Allyson any day now. She was so sure she would go early like she did with her son, but yay for going all the way!

New Kitchen

So our new cabinets were installed this past week. They come to do the granite counter next Tuesday. We are so excited. It is beautiful without the counter, we cant wait to see it with the countertop:) lookie lookie

Spooky loves the no countertop and playes in all the drawers and cabinets

Love my Lazy susan. We packed it up that night and its the best thing.
my cabinet for cookie sheets and meds ( we have alot of meds:))
my Lovey and Spooky
so purty huh?

more pics to come once its all complete. But is beautiful already.