Easter time

I woke up this am and made pancakes for my lovey..we then went to WalMart for some stuff I have needed for a bit...he went with me to make me smile. it worked.
then we came home and made a whole bunch of Easter stuff...and yes, I LOVE THIS...i have that cheesey smile...we laughed all day..it was amazing...He is sleeping right now on the couch...he is still in pain from Surgery last week...um yeah, he had an appendectomy on Monday am....

i love my life....

yesterday was a great day till I was told some things that were not nice by my neighbors...Anyone has a right to there opinion so Im not mad that they dont agree with me taking my husband back but the blatant hypocrisy is what I have an issue with...so I let them say whatever to me. I am also sad that someone that I told the world were my friends, are only my friends if I do what they want..talk smack behind my back if I go against what they think...I am so sad because that not how I role ever....They do ALOT that I dont agree with but accept them as friends..

my friend told me something that I need to remember...she said that I dont have to defend my decision to anyone. She also said, You have been through enough in your life that decision making is not where you lack character in....I love her and was so thankful for those words...

I was a little standoffish to lovey as he worked 13 hours and came home and helped me finish dinner then hang with our friends and family..then I talked to my best friends and my bro and they told me that I shouldnt be sad about the neighbors, I should enjouy this happy time... and then he cuddled with me all night and held me this am like in the movies...it was amazing...and if this is wrong, then
I love being wrong.

I still have to finish pics and post some fun ones:)

purty purty purty

i went to Southbeach this week for a few days with my bro, who flew here from Texas for some work stuff...pics to follow

While I was away, lovey was hard at work on our kitchen...he did our backsplash...it looks amazing...


everyday is gets better...I keep thinking , is this my life?

luv this and luv him

Im gonna write about yesterday then I remember that Im sure you wanna know about my life before then ..hahahaha

I went on thursday to get my nails and feet done. They look amazing. My nail girl of like 15 yrs told me that I am glowing again.. Like you can see happiness all over me. Then I went to softball...there was no girls but lovey came out several time to sit with me...luv it
Then Friday we had date night, he took me to Beni Hanas. It was yum. Then went to ross to see if they had Easter stuff. We bought this cool little bunny.
Yesterday I went to see the girls play softball and then went to Loveys store to get groceries and it was perfect. He was super busy but kept coming over to say heya...luved it Then I went to church last night it was awesome.

I got home and Lovey was sleeping on the couch...68 hrs he worked last week and no day off till Wednesday which is 14 days of work at 6am..um hi, can you say tired.
But last night I laid in bed with him and said, I know your tired but are we good? he is like omg yeah. I said I feel like we are too good that you gonna take off after Easter and yell physic!!!! he is like no...I love our life. He sees his Dr on Tuesday and my bro comes in tomorrow...

Life is good...

and even if this is wrong, it feels so right!

its good to hear

having my husband tell me in passing conversation how I am one of the best people he has ever met and how he told his Dr this...is so nice to hear. He is like she is a hottie and she is the sweetest. Im so lucky...yeah i luv

The Dr told him that I might get resentful in 6 months and to be nice to me....I smiled.

my brother comes here on Monday, I am sooo lucky! I cant wait!!!

two nights in a row we have gone to a brothers house...it was nice...Cooper walking around saying saying Aunt Cassie is pretty awesome too. it made my heart smile.

1 week down 45212545 to go

we have had two amazing days. I am going to resend the divorce papers and he is giving me my ring back..Im nervous but I KNOW its the right thing to do...

he just oozes happiness...so do I:) We keep saying this is where we go to each other.... I wish the awesome girl could see him settling hahahahhaha

we have a date on Friday...Its gonna be super fun!!!

Guitar hero is my friend

In my head I thought my husband would come home and life would return to us in a good way...this has not been the case. Between me being super insecure and lovey being super embarrassed, this is not a good combo.
We went to a family function. It was hard for me seeing everyone but super hard for him. Did I feel bad for him? no. I dont see his side. Im sorry we are broke, but you broke us. And when my sister n laws both see it and say the above thing to me, I get more upset than hurt.


































Then the next day I listen to the luv and respect book again and basically gave the best of myself even though I didnt feel he was giving me anything accept doubt. Then yesterday morning, I decided that we had to talk. So I talked to him and laid it all out. He told me how sorry he was and how he is so embarrassed. I told him to not thinki about him, but me..and for the first ever, he did. He went to see a Dr. and loved him and the Dr reconfirmed to him how he does want to be here.

I have to say that yesterday after our talk was the best day. We were our oldselves but even better than our oldselves...We went to softball and he came and sat with me over and over...yes, this was on my list of must...him putting my high on the list of whatever...

This is a bigger miracle than I can ever wrap my mind around. I dont know whats bigger, God bringing home my husband our changing my heart to adore him.....

im might be a little happy

i went to Hollister to exchange some jeans that we went and bought last night....they wernt opened yet so I had to go to Victoria secret.. Im in love with the new miraculous bras...like loooooooooooooove them...

So I bought some hot stuff for under my hot outfit and then went and got his jeans...we are gonna look so yummy tonight! Ill post some pics.

this is hard but cake compared to...

So Lovey has been home for days now. I wont lie, I love it. I get sad/insecure when he is at work because I am afraid of 4521254 things but one is him changing his mind...I have to think about what he says everyday to me..."I have thought about coming home for 3 months and now I am finally here, so I dont plan on leaving"...I want to believe him. We are so good together..I hate that we have to talk about the yucky stuff but we have to. I was getting sad because everyone that hasnt been through this awesomeness tells me how he should be kissing my ass...He isnt like that, number one and also I dont want guilt love...he is the lovey that I missed..opening my doors..its nice.

He told me yesterday that I could find him a shrink..so Monday Ill call...

He also told me that if I never ever talk about it, that he wont ever. He wants to leave it behind us.

BTW, the mistress wrote me an awesome letter. It basically details everything I already knew. She said she was only telling me because she is so fond of me and thinks this is the right thing...um I want to say, where you fond of me when you were sleeping with my husband? or doing the right thing when you had an affair with him?
She was also nice enough to tell me that they only had an affair because Gary pushyed so much and she was super good and kept telling him no...Um sorry neither one of you get a moral award...sorry, you are both wrong. It takes two to tango and just because you were playing hard to get doesn't make you right...

She told me how he told her loved her more in one week then he did me in 8 yrs...I can have 542544 comments for this, but she is just not so smart to think that is even kind of true...I am not saying he didnt say it, cause I think he did, but who would believe that...

there is alot more that I want to respond to but I wont. She doesn't get that from me. And Lovey agrees with me that she has an ugly soul. He tells me how sorry he is, and that he so doesnt even like her anymore. I wont lie, even if its BS, I liked hearing it.

I still am asking the Easter bunny for the staples easy button