Choose postive

ok..so We...by we, I mean my husband because I complained about not having subscribed to Style to see G & B so We got a higher subsciption and DVR...hahahahahah Well I thought we had alot in common with the IVF's and the cute husbands.....then breast cancer...its like OH mylanta, similar.....and she wants to just help one or two people, Well put me on the list...cause, I feel like we know each other.....and if she knew me we would be BFF's hahahhahahahha...so thanks G for making me laugh during the toughest time ever.... So I today and we are going to Dr today to pick out new boobies. I wont lie this will be the silver lining in all this, new boobs.. and when I was applying my face aka makeup, I realized in like one month, I will have hair growing back! I also got the great news that my brother and family are coming to visit on CHRISTMAS!!!!! Lovey makes our house a little winter womderland so I can freaken wait!!!!!

Breast Cancer

I sit here with tears running down my face.....I spoke to my family and they said to me when I said how I wanted to share this part of my journey but I didnt want to be negative, to share it because its what I am going through...so here it is

I think of death. often...and having tumors that won't shrink from this God awful chemo doesnt help.

No...I dont feel like I would choose having cancer over not having it.

Having something that could cause me to die is HUGE and yes, I do think that any people who claim to be my "friends" should understand that this is a huge thing for ME AND MY HUSBAND and that they should not be so self consumed to be mean to us. I have cancer and my husband spend most days trying to make me smile when the chemo makes me feel horrible and the mood swings arnt fun either....so cut us a break....please

right after chemo seems to be my most horrible physical issues, but 8-10 days after is my horrible mental issues....

yes, im bald, and no i dont feel as cute as my husband and everyone tells me I am.

most days I am positive but I think I should share that I have broken days too....and as my friend told me, my happiness/perkyness is 70/30 which is not so bad considering I dont have any filter with them.....

but all in all....lucky me

i have the best husband
i have the best friends
i have the best family
I have the best nieces/nephews


I find out Monday what my petscan tells me...let hope for BLUE:)