A new day

So I have a lot to say today. But I didn’t want to post about other random crap until I posted pics from the ski trip. This again was amazing!

I got my period today. I started spotting even though I am on prometrium. It was DPO14/15 yesterday and it was some heavy spotting so I stopped the prometrium. I got my full period today. I have left a message for my Dr to see if this is normal or not.

I also spoke to my Dr's nurse the other day because I would like to switch Dr's I think. I feel like it is so drastic to go from IVF not even an option back in August to Lap in Jan which was one of the 3 options I had after 3 medicated cycles. Now he says more injections or straight to IVF. I feel like this is a bit of a rush considering we have both passed all tests with flying colors (except my progesterone which I’m currently taking prometrium for) and he even said I could still get pregnant with low progesterone....so all in all ..Unexplained infertility for 14 cycles. I am not even 31 yet and so I feel this may be a rush.
.....So on the boards over at twoweekwait.com a lady, which lives near me and goes to the same clinic I do, mentioned that she went to a different Dr and loved her. At the new Dr their IVF is sooo much less money and she said that the Dr encouraged her to keep getting acupuncture and agreed with the herbal approach. sooo I emailed her and asked for the info. Well they have a very BIG office, actually 3 of them all about 15-20 years old. So not new and not small, but affordable. So I think I may switch.

LONG STORY LONGER-so I don’t tell the nurse this but I ask for my records and she told me it is always a good idea to keep a set of records on file at home. So yay.

I also asked her if it was weird that ovulated on day 10 which is hella early for me. She said to keep an eye out this next month to see. I told her that I didn’t think I was prego this month because to get prego requires having quality time with Lovey and he had a high fever and so I got NO quality time for 2 days right when I got my peak day on my monitor. Nice huh. So it wasn’t Gods timing this month either.

Also I need to ask her if it is normal not to have any pregnancy signs ever on the progesterone. I have no breast tenderness, no bloatedness, no nausea. I do however have vivid dreams, moodiness, and a lot of painful at times, gas. (not smelly thanks God!)haha

So according to fertilityfriend this is my 19th cycle a bust...but I was out of town for a few months during my "O" time and so I cant count those. Then last month, Lovey being sick...that was a no go....and another 2 different months were a no go on those crucial days too...so fertilityfriend says 19 cycle but I say 13-14 cycles....and I am cassifriend...Im smarter, I know me better....hahahhaah

also for the record I asked my nurse if there is a test for your CM to see if it is hostile and the sperm cant live in it or whatever...and she said there is but it is not reliable and not very scientific. You have quality time and then the next am you go in and they see if the sperm are alive in you. She said they don’t like this because it isn’t accurate and gives people false results. She said my estrogen was perfect at the right time so that means my CM should be perfect too. I told her we use pressed just in case:)

Great times at Lake Tahoe

So we went on our annual ski trip. I didnt ski this year due to the fact thta my husband is WAY better than I am and I get really upset that he doesnt want to hang out on the bunny slopes with me all day. haha

So this year I decided to shop and go to the spa a few days. I loved not skiing more than I thought I would. My bothers girlfriend hung out with me and we played in the snow. I got a really bad cold and was a lil cranky but not too bad and we had so much fun. MY lovey loves hangin with my bother so they snowboarded all day everyday together on the blackdiamonds ( the hardest slop) Lovey bought a helmet so he could start doing stunts. Thank God cause he banged his head a few times.

We stayed at Loveys distric managers house. It was 3 stories and soooo nice and inexpensive.

Here are the 4527854954 pics.

Look at the fresh snow!

Getting our nails and feet done!
how cute?
Lovey got me this jacket and my bother got Bre one to match me:)
I love my brother
lets play!

my brother and Lovey
Sledding Time
my sledding partner
one more time!

my lovey with Breezy and DJ
a lil blurry but i love this one
my handsome Lovey
brotherly love
some more brotherly love....why didnt I grow more?

out our balcony....isnt it beautiful?
on top of the mountain:)

my handsome Lovey and me

my brother and Breezy

What a GREAT time we all had. We played so much yahtzee. My brother is addicted to it. We plan to go there every year from here on out. The boys boarded at Seirra mountain (1/2 hr away)and will probably do it at heavenly next year and that mountain is only a few miles away and not a half hour drive. Yay!

Trust in the Lord with ALL of your heart.

So I started using this monitor thingy. I think I like it. I have a VERY good feeling about it. Well on day 8 I got a high and day 9 I got a peak. I thought this was odd so I took a digtal OPK and Happy face there was...
So Lovey comes home and he is sosoososo sick. Like coughing up flemb and all that yucky stuff. No Fever. He is on the Z Pack. So I am packing stuff for our ski trip and he is on the couch and he says "you want your valentines gift?" I said you got me a valentines gift? He says of course, but we wont be here so I am going to give it to ya. I am like no at first, then he insist so he give it to me....guess what it is?

A dooney, thats right! How cute is it? Sorry I look like end of day, wind blown crap but I was so excited!

I am beyond happy. I cant beleive he did this:) I have to take it and exchange it today because it has a tear in two places on it and thats not gonna work!

So he starts to feel worse and I take his temp and its over 100. I am like crap. He thens goes to bed and falls asleep. Um...I am ovulating...so another month is a bust? So I go and whisper to him, can we still do it and he barley can speak and says...im sorry, I just cant.

So I get up this am and take my temp...it has gone up .4 and I started spotting last night, and I got a negative on my opk's....but I got a peak on my clearblue monitor. So I call them and they tell me that you automaticallly get 2 days of peak...no matter what. I am like you pay all that money and you get a peak no matter what? I am confused. Anyway all night and this morning I keep telling myself...Trust in Lord with all of your heart and lean not to your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your path. So I will keep saying this so I dont get angry that Lovey is sick...like he meant to do this...nice wife I am.

We leave to go Lake Tahoe in the morning. I cant wait for that!

a little bit of this and a little bit of that....

Ok alot of Randomness here.

First things first...so glad my grandma is on here. "Welcome to the dark side" in my Darth Vader voice.....

2nd..Thanks for the monitor. So when I get knocked up I can thank you for helping me have the technology to time our quality time just right.

3rd. My sticks, that I bought on eBay for $30.00, for my monitor my Grandma let me borrow did not come in on time so I had to go to Walgreens and buy them for $50.00...omgoodness, I am so cheap..$50.00.

4th. My Perfect Acia pills came in this afternoon to avoid my " What am I gonna do on my ski trip with no Monavie?" Saga. Yay!

5th I love my husband.

6th Jess came over today and trimmed my cats nails. It sooo needed to be done. And she confirmed she will come over and clip the babies nails when need be. (EVERYDAY)

7th My sister n laws baby Allyson is 5 lbs 6 oz...she is safe to come any time. She made the 34 week cutoff. Her room is already..so either come now or wait till I get back from my trip...You know because its all about me.

8th My mind keeps yoyoing back and forth regarding my treatment plan. Do I do what I have planned and not going on shots or anything till May08. I have skiing next week, then to Texas for a week in the middle of March for work, then Bach party in Vegas in April and wedding in May. Then if I am not knocked up by then own our own then start treatment? Because I went to dinner the other night with my sister n laws and they are both preggers and I am so jealous. Not the mean kind of jealous, the awww I want that kind of jealous. It makes me want to skip all this crap and just IVFit and hope that works... hmmmmm I really am glad I am so busy with all this other crap because I think I would be more obsessive about this IF stuff.

Thats it and thats all.

Game Night!

Its Mike Bday Game night!

Lovey rockin it out on the guatar with the hat:)

Baby G so big already!

Mike and R jammen
M and Baby G singin better than American Idol
Mike shares his bday cake with Baby G
Show your tongue!

and randomly my spookey is soooo big!

R and his cheesy but oh so cute smile
The band room
Lovey concentrating
Baby G drummen away


What a GREAT idea it was to have us all over for game night. Once we got there it was fine. I wasnt odd man out. We had a GREAT night. Ate way too much crap. But it was so good. We jammed until almost midnight 0n this thing. You should see all these grown adults playing this video game...its hilarious.

After we were done we went and saw the room for the new baby girl that is on her way....Allyson Taylor will be here anyday:) Well, she will be 34 weeks the 6th....the Dr thinks soon after that....so we shall see. I just hope its not while we are gone., the 13th - 20th I cant wait to kiss her face:)

A sad day and a Great husband

So the other night we had plans to go a friends house to play guatar hear 3 and rock band. We had plans last week but due to a family loss they had to reschedule.

So my lovey comes home and I have gotten dressed and I think I look pretty cute. And he just smiles and we leave. Now I am dreading going. And for selfish reasons, but I dont want to tell Lovey why because im my mind he will think it is dumb. So our conversation goes a lil something like this.

Lovey: Whats the matter?
Beautiful Cass: Nothing
Lovey: no, really whats wrong?
Beautiful and psycho Cass: You know it wouldnt kill you to tell me how pretty I am every once in awhile. I mean its always , your so dumb, your so stupid..(in a cute funny way, never mean). Even my nickname is Tardo...I mean can you just be nice, would it kill you?
Lovey: Ok, whats really wrong? you cant serioulsy be mad becasue I didnt tell you how cute you look? not this upset anyway...so whats wrong?
Beautiful and sad Cass: As I start to cry, I yell...I just dont want to see my sister n laws that are both pregnant and I just got my period. It wouldnt hurt so bad if they didnt leave me out...but if they do like last time where you have to be a member of the pregnant club to hang out, then I dont want to talk to them. Its not like Im too sensitive to talk about it in front of me. They dont even know about my blog or my sadness. At all. What are we in highschool?
Amazing Lovey: Now thats a real reason. I love you. I am sorry your so sad. and he grabs my hand and asks if that helps....and then leans over and kisses my forhead and whispers..Tardo.

I love that my husband knows me well enough now to help me through all this crap. There arn't many sad days, but I do get em, and it can be very hard on those days. Lovey and I both have learned each others personalities so we know when something is wrong....I love that. If anything had come from this dumb IF stuff, its that we are rockin close.

I love being married to this man. Now if I could only get knocked up:)