duhhh

I just realized that I never posted about Calleigh Cassandra being born. I posted pics on my facebook and myspace but not here:(

Well she was born via c-section January 5th, 2009. She was 8 lbs and 19 inches long and yes I think she quite a cute lil girl. and yes I do think she gets cuter and cuter everyday.

She lost some weight in the beginning but now it seems she is rocken and rollen. Mommy and her just had to get into their breatfeeding grove...Its so funny because I see how I was with Bre about breatsfeeding and now she is helping our cousin. yay!

ok, i dont have a millions pics, but without any further ado...

Lets get this party started...

I read that on Jens blog many months ago...and I loved it am officially stealing it.

Lets get this party started!!!

I go Feb 5th at 3:45 to Miami IVF for my very first appointment. I chose this place because 1) I felt a peace of all the facts that I found on them...Google and I are BFF's. haha 2) Palm beach Fertility, Dr Dinker, basically says on his blog that he is god with a big "G"...um NO, there in only one God and he will help me get a baby and no I wont be using you...

The insurance may even cover the PGD- which is where they take out the family sickness that runs in my family. If not it will be around 5k which is a small price to pay for my childrens health....

I will copy Rachel and take loads of pics of the entire process. I have a REALLY good feeling about this.

Also, Friday my Dad had chemo...we got a call halfway through because the building caught fire...and I said teasing him..."Did you get the rest of your chemo in the parking lot?" where he stood for a half hour and he said, "yes. Actually I did". Can you imagine? I am still laughing at the thought of the site of that.

My second cousin had her baby yesterday. She was in labor for 24 hours..and then still had to have a c-section. But she is great and so is her son.

long but good. I mean GREAT day

ok today we had a hard day. My Dad came in yesterday and then today too. It was aweful. We know is not himself, we know this because he sweared at DJ. Called him a jackass and then said damn and shit..Well if anyone knows me knows that =that is more than out of character for my Dad. I dont think I have ever heard a cus word come out of his mouth.

Then it happened...

a long overdue moment...

my Dad sent an email to the entire company and told them that he is stepping aside. DJ will be working with my Step mom and the banks to make a new day...we want to see if he really does this, but seeing how he is dwindling away and starts another round of chemo tomorrow, I think it might really happen.

then

my step mom emailed me the phone number to the inurance rep. So I called her and asked her A LOT of questions. I asked her what her limitations where. she answered all my questions and the very long short of it...
Im covered...no preexsissting...100%. as long as I meet my deductable and go their Dr.'s its a done deal.

so my only issue is I THINK I have decided on what place to call, but I dont know. None of these places are ones I have heard of before....so if you can help me choose would be awesome.
in order of choice...
#1
http://www.miami-ivf.com/
#2
http://www.palmbeachfertility.com/

and dont really like these, but I dont know...
Dr. Maurice R. Peress
Dr. Edward Buonopane
Dr. Kenneth Gilman
Dr Alan W. Black
Dr Rolando Lacayo
Dr. Ramon Iglesias
Dr. Juan Lugo
Dr. Ronald Sancetta
Dr. Michael D Weiner

can you please help me?

Our wedding Video

So our videographer works for Apple. He is a bigwig for them so he no longer has time to do the video thing on the side...so the website is down...and he is so awesome that he uploaded my video to Youtube!! yayayay

wanna see?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eaPulXD43eo

awesome huh?

IVF not covered after all

So I found out yesterday that IVF is only partly covered under the insurance we have. Also I would have to go to a not popular fertility clinc. And there is a 5 year waiting period...so long story short.

No ivf covereage.

I will be going home Feb 4th and going to the Dr right away and we will finance it. And I think we will only finance one cycle....

I have to say I am beyond sad. I was told by my step mom to stop asking about the coverage 6 months ago. And to wait till Feb 1st to get the insrance to cover the whole thing and not pay 15k....I feel like I put up with them not being nice to me just to have this...and now I dont have this at all...So whats in it for me for turning the other cheek over and over and over. And no, not feeling guilty when my Dad dies is not a good reason for me.

I could list all the things that my Dad hasnt done for me but we would be here all day. and I no Im not talking about material things. Im talking about the complete disgust he looks at me with everytime I see him. Im talking about how he cant say hello or goodbye to me. Im talking about them blaming me and DJ for us not being close to him...see I could go on and on, but I wont.

Im going to try and live like the Lord would want me to and not be angry and know that he has a plan.

Please pray for me.

YaYaYaY- AMAZING NEWS!!!!!!

soooo. drumroll please...

I just found out that my insurance here in Texas WILL cover IVF...BUT IN FLORIDA WHERE I LIVE!!! YAYAYAYYAYAAYAYAYAYAYAY! This is great news!

I love my family but I dont want to be away from my husband for weeks getting shots a few times a day....so yayyayayaya

Did I say yay!!!