Neuro

Soooo, its almost been a year since I went to my neurologist.....and the time I went I had no hair, but walked and talked better....and my nurse politely told me, as I was complaining about how I believe the Chemo aggravated the ataxia , just be happy your won your fight...............


So perspective yes.....

I also start a drug called Amantadine............

One year survivor party

ok.....so Im approaching a year and Im sooooooooooooooo happy to be on this side of cancer!!!!!! So having such cute stuff for my party is not tough...My Mom is super excited too. She is hoasting it with me. My husband is sooo on board and is so supportive.....

In telling my friends and family that I am doing this has really helped. People have donated goods and time....Im so blessed..........

So I have a friend donating goods and her time. She is not only making the table ceneterpieces but also the invites...

I also am having made for my small nieces shirts with this on them

with pink tutus!!!

and some of the items are already starting to collect in my living room....!!!!

the top is rock candy, gumballs, and pink and white paper straws. Im making a pink lemonade bar and a Sangria bar

2nd row are molds for chocolate favors, then pink and white candy sticks

3rd row tissue balls

and then confetti for the tables and buttons

I have a desert bar, a photographer that I love, tables and chairs, table centerpieces, a Survivor photoshoot, banners and cealing decor,

all being donated

Alot done but still alot to do

survived

A while ago, I had a health guru put on his personal fb status that he HATES pink ribbons and what they stand for....Well I dont. First off before I get all personal, he is a fitness trainer and a health nut so bad mouthing breast cancer probably shouldnt be on his list of complaints.ever....

What happened to TRY TRY TRY!!!! NEVER GIVE UP! So you where dealt a bad had of cards....play em good....

I dot even kinda agree with his logic.

And yes I understand that some cancers can be avoided by food and no stress but I still had a very stressful year( death, divorce, and infertility to only name a few) and ate like crap and yes I got cancer.........so I love the pink ribbons, I love the support and I pray that you never experience being so low during treatment that everytime you see a sign of support it makes your heart smile.....

and one the year of being out of treatment, I am having a survivor party

anniversary

I read awhile ago that some cancer survivors dont think that you should celebrate an anniversary.....Whats there to celebrate? Um ,no more chemo which makes everyone feel like deaths knocking on your door, getting hair again, Cancer not reoccuring, and the lesson of whats important......Also to celebrate all the love shown to the person when they are at a very low point.

So a year out of chemo, I want to celebrate

Thank you for all the love....

yes

I am angry that having cancer made me infertile.....yes Im aware that I was already infertile before cancer but now its a sure thing.....

Seeing the girl on "I am having their baby" have a baby for her best friend just reminded me....

and I know that everyone means well that says , your lucky IVF didnt work so you didnt have a baby during treatment....but let me clear it up.....N,o I dont feel that.....my marriage almost didnt survive it and when i was puking and nearly a year after treatment, I never was happy I had no babies.....yes I do see the silver lining but I still wish every.single.day