So everyday my spooky does something to make me laugh and a million things that make me smile:) and yesterday i was talking on the phone and walked by the first bathroom and i see something on the floor... no, not poop. Better...tissues everywhere. I looked closer and my spooky has clawed all the tissue out of the tissue box....when you look at each tissue there are lil claw holes in each of them...so cute

Lovey and I havent had a going to sleepy night night pic in awhile..so here we are. I know we are a sight for sore eyes.
Tonight we went to Lowes to sign our contract for kitchen cabinets....Our money tree is officially empty.But we are gonna have the nicest kitchen...I can wait! After that we went to eat at one of our favorite spots, Cracker Barrel. It was so yummy. And I beat Lovey at the peg game... this is his eyes because he knows that i have beaten him....

and i swear i didnt mean to make this face. it just happened and he took a pic to capture my beauty.


They are delivering our cabinets in about 4 weeks. Hoepfully not when we are skiing. Otherwise Jess is going to have to stay on our porch for a week. She can come inside to feed spooky once a day....hahahhahh. They then install them and about 10 days later we will get our granite countertop.



I looooove my husband. He is the sweetest, cutest boy that I have ever met. How did I get this blessed?

a bunch of randomness

So my Amazing & Talented husband is remodeling our kitchen. We are going to have new cabinets/ granite counters installed in 5 weeks. Look at where we are...The old cabinet and squared off bar is now an open wrap around bar we can put stools at.


and this is before.............

BTW, The two liner opk kits are for the birds. They stink to all high heaven. The are expensive and I can never tell if the line is dark enough for a positve or not. Well I bought the happpy face ones for when I thought i had a positive I could confirm with a smiley and I must say...I LOVE THEMMMMMM. They work so well. And for the record when I pull the stick out of the applicator it is NOT two solid lines....so there. haha

This weekend I went to a baby shower. The baby, Brian, was actually born 5 weeks early, so she already has him. Due to his pre-maturity, he didnt come to the shower. I went to see them last week and loved loved loved on him. I felt so blessed. and the mommy made me laugh and laugh. I love laughter.

I dont have any pics from the shower because my Jess had them on her camera, but when i get some Ill post em. It was good times.

Wednesday I went to my sisters n laws ultrasound for her 30th week. I saw lil Allyson. She is so lil and perfect. I cant wait to see this lil one. Our nephew is already so cute..and then a lil girl..hmmm I cant wait to see her!

My other sister in law is sosososo sick. She is 8 weeks pregnant. She didnt get sick until about a week ago. But she is on meds and all...and she just seems so sad all the time. They got their 8 week ultrasound and the baby looks great and the heartbeat was strong. No worries there. They tried to get pregnant for a year and the 12 cycle she finally did. So it gives me faith to keep on tryin.

Skiing in 28 days! whooohooo!

Chin up

This weekend was my friend Christina;s baby shower. I had so much fun. I sat with a girl and her 3 month old son. She had him and her 3 yr old daughter with an "oops". She tells me to stop trying and I will get pregnant. I told her that how so ya stop trying or planning after a year of "when it happens it does" and it doesnt. She couldnt answer me....and then it was that AH HA moment when you realize she was just saying that to say somehting for conversation. I think us girls that are hurting so much to be pregenant are hurt at the mere thought that we arnt doing our part. We get angry that people tell us to relax, or go on vacation...but I reallly think its because the have n0 idea what to say. I dont think I would ever say that to someone but I dont

Love her

Lookie lookie...

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She tried for so long to get Max, then got him...YAY for them. She wondered how long it would take to get her figure back..I guess only 5 months because look how awesome she looks!

:)

Laparascopy

OK, I didn't write about my Lap on my LJ because there are not many girls who care about the lap procedure..or so I think....

I went in VERY nervous. It's not everyday that they cut you open. (Almost everyday you get a giant life savor sword stuck up ya, but not cut open) So I go in and they prep me. I tell them I get sick from the anesthesia, so they give me extra anti-nausea stuff. The IV was the worst part. I think she put it in wrong. I don't think I'm a woos about stuff like that. I milk sympathy on other things. HAHA But this hurt so badly. So they take me right into surgery. When I wake up from what I do remember my husband told me that I had a "mild cas of Endo". Before I went under I told my Dr. about a girl who had the high side of normal insulin levels and her Dr said she has PCOS. I asked him if I had it because my insulin is the higher side of normal and he chuckled and said no. So I was relieved. Anyway the anestassia is what kicked my butt. I did not have the bad gas, or the pain in my shoulders everyone talks about. I did have the mild sore throat. My top of my mouth was REALLY sore and had to eat Boston Markets mac and cheese for days. (helped my diet) And my abs were sore in general. I did not get back to normal stuff for a week.

And because I get sad when I am having a symptom and someone doesn't detail their symptom, then I'll wonder if I 'm experiencing the same thing, Ill tell you about my cramps....Well it wasn't like dull throbbing period cramps. It was like a knife in you special place, slicing and dicing kind of cramps. They gave me pain pills but it wasn't so extreme that I had to take them. I did take 2 of them, but I hated how I was so "high".

I went to the Dr. Tuesday of this week and he told me that I did have a mild case of Endo. They did clean it up. He told me a few things....It may return in about 3 years, he would like me to do more injections for a few months, and then move to IVF. Well my money tree has taken a vacation so we don't have the money for more meds, more IUIS, and more wonderful ultrasounds. I told him that we are 30 and everything is normal for us except my progesterone. So we are going to those wonderful suppositories for a few months before jumping back into the meds thing. It took a major toll on me. I don't know women do the IVF protocol. I was a mess from the mini stem...ugg

Surgery last week + no coffee this week = lazy ass

So today i woke up and I thought hmmm. “I’m going to work so hard today.” I guess I forgot about quitting caffeine today…so surgery last week plus no coffee this week = lazy ass. So I ate breakfast which is quite an accomplishment for me…then processed a few orders and read blogs all day. See I have done so much. Haha I am still having cramps though…And the kind that knife in your special place. Um, yeah. So nice. I had no idea that it would be almost a week later and I would still be hurtin…uggg

So today in my not so work productive day i read lots of blogs about ladies that are in the same place as me as far as wanting kidos...loving there husbands and all that. And I have to say that I feel very relieved to know that others are having the same rough time as me. Alot of people have advise for the infertiles...but relax and stop worrying seems to be the most popular. And although anyone who has ever uttered those words only say them from the very kindest spot of their heart...I dont think they realize that you are unable to not worry or stress about it when its been over a year. It was nice reading other funny entries of girls making the best out of the situation and i loved positive people.

Lovey came home with chicken, green peppers, and some wild rice. I made dinner while he attempts to rewire our holy kitchen. Yep, renovations have started. We went and got our loan for the kitchen remodel and he has knocked down our wall. I can’t wait to see it all complete. It will be so beautiful. We then are going to get wood blinds for our house, then put wood floors in the remaining two rooms. I call it the silver lining remodel. If we had babies running around we probably couldn’t have afforded this. …so I think of the positive.

We go the RE dr tomorrow to get a follow-up on surgery. Lovey said that they found a “mild case” of endometriosis. I don’t think it was enough to hinder me from getting knocked up, but who knows.

I got my hair did the other day. I don’t like how he cut it. I look like a girl out of a def leopard video back in the day. I think I have awesome hair so for it to look yucky is not acceptable for me.I am going to try and update more.

ttc randomness

So yesterday the Dr. told me that he thinks I’m responding excellent to the meds. He said that sometimes the clomid had adverse affects. The curing one type of infertility you can cause another. There can be issues with the lining of the uterus..or something like that....so we have three options.1. All injectable drugs...like a grand in shots plus plus plus..$$$$2. surgery for endometriosis- laparoscopy3. IVFSo we decided to have the lap to see if I have endo. If I have it, it can be the complete cause of the delay in pregnancy. Funny thing is that when I was younger after my miscarriage, my gyno, that always diagnosed me incorrectly before 3497974483 million test for STD's that came out negative..... She told me that I might have it because i had really painful periods...anyway, I cant wait to know. They are scheduling me for Dec 3-9th or so...they are calling me tomorrow.btw... Gym today. 1 hour of cardio...Third day complete:) Weighed myself and I am down 3 lbs from a few weeks ago....yayyayayayay.